Rambling Thoughts

It has been a while since I posted anything. So many things have happened the last few months. So many changes and different directions being taken. I myself have been immersed in being a grandmother. Watching my granddaughter grow, develop and change has been amazing. I now remember why my house was always a mess despite my best efforts when my kids were little. Phew! This kid can make the biggest mess in the shortest amount of time. This young grandma has trouble keeping up with her sometimes.

Currently I find myself drawn to merely watching her as she makes new discoveries. I love watching the gears in her head turn. Her needs are so simple. Now I am seeing signs of something quite interesting. While her simple needs are met and she is usually happy with this, there are times when even though she has everything she needs she still gets so upset and gets frustrated when she can’t get us to understand what she wants.

How often do we find ourselves doing the same thing? Even though our simple needs are met we crave more. We try to get others to understand what we are looking for but, because we each have a different idea of what would make a person content we do not always understand what the other is saying. This often leads to so many misunderstandings, hurt feelings, anger and possibly even lashing out.

I do not know what the solution is to this. This post is merely the ramblings of a doting grandmother. While I do not know the solution, I can share what what I do know. Through all the years I have lived; I have gone through my fair share of hardships, selfish thoughts and actions, and then putting self aside to serve others. What I found that helps me be content with my family, my surroundings, my co-workers, my friends and acquaintances despite what is going on around me… is my faith. I can’t explain it and I won’t even try. A person’s faith is…. personal. It is something that is solely between the two beings involved. To me it is the very essence of ones relationship with the world’s creator and savior.

I wish there was a way to snap my fingers and make it to where everyone is able to find contentment quickly and easily, but alas that is not something I can do. Each person must find their own contentment. I can not force it on them. That road is rarely an easy one. A person must discover who they are or aren’t and what they especially believe in. Some people go their whole lives unable to find any form of contentment. This concept saddens my heart.

I think Paul said it best in his letter to the saints in Ephesus, “I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all things through him who gives me strength.”

I pray that you, who are reading these rambling thoughts from a doting grandmother, can find the contentment that Paul found and that I too have found.

Tough Times

One of the hardest things to do is step back and trust God to take care of things without our personal involvement. I have had to learn this over and over. Each time He patiently teaches me this lesson. I’m sure every time I revisit it, the Good Lord is up there shaking his head saying, “Okay. If you need to learn this again then here we go.”

As I am watching everything that is happening in this country, it is hard not to put my two cents worth in. Then I think, “Why do I need to do that? Does anyone really care about my thoughts or opinions?” Nope. Folks are often to busy worrying about their own thoughts and opinions. So I have to consciously sit back and say, “I know you’ve got this Lord.”

It is hard though. Especially when I see my kids suffering because of bad decisions on someone else’s part. Again, I have to consciously sit back and say, “I know you’ve got this Lord.”

Recently, I have had two people that I am fond of get Covid. One has ended up in the hospital. I find myself gritting my teeth and saying, “You got this Lord?” His response. I get a text from my brother;

“Hey, Sis! Whatcha doing Columbus day weekend?”

“I don’t know. Why?”

Then my brother proceeds to tell me that he is going to be ordained as a pastor that Sunday and that as his first pastoral act he would like to full fill his promise of baptizing my youngest daughter.

Yup. I’m pretty sure God’s got this despite all the craziness that surrounds us right now.

Thank you, Lord.

Squirrelly Blood Pressure

Have you ever sat and watched a squirrel? They are fascinating. From what I have seen they rarely stay in one place very long; bouncing here and there, running from one place to the next, they are simply going going going. That is the way my blood pressure was a couple of months ago. It would go high, then low, then high, then somewhere in the middle, then high again. It was crazy and I felt absolutely terrible. Of course it would have to happen when the Covid19 crisis had just swung into full gear. Doctors weren’t letting patients come in. Everyone was being told to stay home. What was I to do?

My sweet worried husband got me in to be seen with a wonderful doctor who was kind enough to give us the green light to come in. So into the doctors office I go. It was almost like walking into a well regulated ghost town. Never had I seen it so quite in those facilities. The staff was there, of course, and few patients could be seen here or there but the usually bustling building was eerily quiet.

Fast forwarding a month, the medication the doctor prescribed me was wonderful. It took two weeks for my blood pressure numbers to stabilize, but once they did the numbers quit bouncing around all over the place and finally settled down into a nice steady regular set. Unfortunately, while the medication did what it was suppose to do, right from the beginning I developed a most annoying side effect… a dry cough.

Now, normally this wouldn’t bother me. However, when one of the main symptoms of Covid19 is a dry cough it proves to be quite bothersome. The looks I would get when I had to get out to take care of business were not nice ones and yes, I wore a mask. People were not so nice to anyone who had a little cough and understandably so, but still…. come on!

I was very happy when the doctor changed my prescription to something else, but it had its own side effects that my body just wanted to try out it seems. Whew! That was quite the roller coaster the new medication put me on. While it is stabilizing a bit now I don’t think I will lose all the side effects the new medication has to offer.

I do appreciate the medication and its control it has over my squirrelly blood pressure, my hope is to one day rid myself of it. Who has time for twirling beds, nausea, and swollen ankles. Not this gal! I’ve stories to write, hiking to do, and dragons to chase down.

Until next time…

Welcome to my new website!

Hello hello! Its been quite a while since I’ve done blog posts. I remember when I first started trying to build an online presence. I did so through blogging. However, I never really knew what to blog about. So my blog posts ended up being ramblings from the mind of a person who was dealing with sleep deprivation brought on by child rearing, stress, and the desire to write, write, and write some more. Needless to say my blogging never took off.

Then, upon finishing up my first book “An Unexpected Adventure” and publishing it, I needed a website to help promote it. Thus my next attempt at building an online presence began. I built a website with descriptions of myself and my newly printed book as well as a link to purchase it. As time went on I added testimonials from folks who read “An Unexpected Adventure” and a sneak peak into the first few chapters in the hopes of enticing others to try it out. It was a lovely site, but got very little traffic.

Eventually, I caved and started a Facebook page. Once again, I am faced with what am I going to post? Am I going to post every day? Most importantly, why am I doing this? I never did find a good answer to these questions. Facebook to me is psychologically disturbing. Yes, a person can try to offset the negative with positive but ultimately, what is it doing to one psychologically. In my case, it turned me into a mess. So while I do have a Facebook page, I rarely post to it and I try to avoid Facebook as much as possible. It’s crazy, I know. Unfortunately, this is how I am.

Which brings me to now. Here I am, once again, building a website. My previous one has disappeared due to some dissatisfaction with my previous hosting service. I am back to square one with the same questions as before with the most important question being, “Why have a website at all? What is its purpose?”

Over the next few weeks, as I work to rebuild, I hope to discover an answer to these questions. In the meantime, WELCOME! I am so happy you are interested in me and my stories. I hope to see you many more times in the future.

Until next time, may the dragons you encounter be ones of wisdom of kindness…